I'm not going to do these anymore. For one, they're starting to cause problems in my personal life, and for two I don't really have much right now that I care to talk about. I may write again at some point and I may not, but for now I'm just not feeling like doing much of anything, much less writing some stupid public diary.
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Saturday, October 18, 2014
Friday, October 17, 2014
October 17, 2014
Kinda not feeling like blogging much. I'll catch y'all up on everything tomorrow, but for now I'd rather just spend time with Gillian while I still can.
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Thursday, October 16, 2014
October 16, 2014 - Century Link is Poop
There's actually not a whole lot to talk about today, honestly. That is by NO MEANS to say that today was anything but amazing, but there just isn't a ton to talk about. Gillian had an early release today so I got to pick her up early and we mostly did her homework and I worked on my application to the Harnett County School system. It's 28 pages long!!! I've never seen such a huge application!
At this point I'm about half way done with it and have intentions to finish it after finishing writing this.
Oh! Here's an odd thing that happened today. When we got to my house Gillian (as she often does) wanted to see the neighbor's donkey, Pablo and when we walked over to him we noticed their horse was licking the fence. We went and got Taco Bell an hour or two later and when we came back the horse was STILL licking the exact same spot of the fence. For all I know he's still doing it right now. No idea why. Maybe he's a little bit "speshull"?
We discussed Impulse some, since I've started it a bit more today. At first it was REALLY confusing and kind of hard to read because of the unique writing style, but I'm getting used to it. I actually have some ideas for it, but I'm not going to say anything publicly quite yet. Especially since I have barely started the book. I may change my mind by the end of it. So far Tony is my favorite character. He seems pretty cool. Conner seems like a douche and I don't know much about Vanessa yet. Definitely excited to read more tonight.
I just realized that it's been a while since I've written any songs. I should work on my album soon. I miss songwriting.
Another thing that happened was the Century Link guy came out to try to fix our internet. It worked for a few minutes and then as soon as he left dropped back down so I called his sorry ass back to the house and had him check it out again. He replaced the modem and the internet, although still morbidly slow, is now technically working again. I would give my left kidney to have Charter out here...Century Link is God-awful and should go die in a hole somewhere. Except that it's a corporations and those can't really die in a hole. Well, I mean, I suppose they CAN if they're like bombed or something, but still. The point remains the same. I HATE Century Link.
That's about all I have to say for today. If there is one lesson you should learn from my blog today it should be that Century Link is horrible and that nobody should ever use their service because literally everything about the company is bad. LITERALLY everything.
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At this point I'm about half way done with it and have intentions to finish it after finishing writing this.
Oh! Here's an odd thing that happened today. When we got to my house Gillian (as she often does) wanted to see the neighbor's donkey, Pablo and when we walked over to him we noticed their horse was licking the fence. We went and got Taco Bell an hour or two later and when we came back the horse was STILL licking the exact same spot of the fence. For all I know he's still doing it right now. No idea why. Maybe he's a little bit "speshull"?
We discussed Impulse some, since I've started it a bit more today. At first it was REALLY confusing and kind of hard to read because of the unique writing style, but I'm getting used to it. I actually have some ideas for it, but I'm not going to say anything publicly quite yet. Especially since I have barely started the book. I may change my mind by the end of it. So far Tony is my favorite character. He seems pretty cool. Conner seems like a douche and I don't know much about Vanessa yet. Definitely excited to read more tonight.
I just realized that it's been a while since I've written any songs. I should work on my album soon. I miss songwriting.
Another thing that happened was the Century Link guy came out to try to fix our internet. It worked for a few minutes and then as soon as he left dropped back down so I called his sorry ass back to the house and had him check it out again. He replaced the modem and the internet, although still morbidly slow, is now technically working again. I would give my left kidney to have Charter out here...Century Link is God-awful and should go die in a hole somewhere. Except that it's a corporations and those can't really die in a hole. Well, I mean, I suppose they CAN if they're like bombed or something, but still. The point remains the same. I HATE Century Link.
That's about all I have to say for today. If there is one lesson you should learn from my blog today it should be that Century Link is horrible and that nobody should ever use their service because literally everything about the company is bad. LITERALLY everything.
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Wednesday, October 15, 2014
October 15, 2014 - Effective Teacher Certification!!!
I'm just going to pick up where I left off yesterday.
I realized I had eaten a whole pizza in a day and started freaking out about that fact. But then I remembered something. Mom made pie. Delicious, warm, sweet apple pie. I couldn't help myself and despite my anxiety, I got a piece anyway. I went upstairs to my desk where my phone was plugged in, as well as my headphones, and set down the pie on my desk. I realized that I'd need to get something to drink so I went downstairs for some Lemonade and as I got up, I managed to flip the plate of pie completely over, off of the desk onto the floor and it landed exactly as badly is it could have onto my phone (which fell at the same time) and onto my computer power cables. After a good long string of expletives, I went to go clean it up and guess what. No paper towels. I eventually found paper towels downstairs, got another piece of the now almost-gone pie, and cleaned up the mess, letting the dog get the smaller crumbs. She was happy about that.
I finished BSMoR last night and it was perfect. The ending was absolutely incredible and I wish I knew Roger in real life. I think we'd be bros. Through and through it is now in my top 5 favorites and I would recommend it to anyone at all who is not a child. (The book deals with some adult themes and uses a lot of profanity.) Easily 5 out of 5 stars.
I changed my mind about starting Wolf in a White Van immediately after BSMoR. I didn't want to read all of Darnielle's works back to back for fear of somehow growing tired of them. I don't think that would realistically happen, but I figured a break will just add to my excitement and anticipation, so instead I started Impulse by Ellen Hopkins. It's one of Gillian's favorites, so I figured I'd read it. The cover is pretty cool and the writing style is really unique and neat too, so I look forward to reading it.
So today was a really busy day. I woke up late so I had to rush to exercise and shower. Then I headed to my psychology appointment. We did more EMDR stuff, which is still very fascinating to me, and I explored the ending of each thought stream related or linked to my original first experience with needles, so that was neat too. We also talked more about music and religion.
After therapy, I had to get my lesson plan ready so that I could give my lesson today for class. I taught the Cartesian Coordinate System and read them a book on its invention. The lecture went really well and I enjoyed teaching and they seemed to enjoy the lesson too. A few of the women got my number afterwards so that I could tutor their children in math so I'm very much looking forward to that, and the teacher who is a principal at a school down the road told me after class that she'd stay in touch with me because she "want[s] to make sure [I] get a good job in education." I was very very flattered and am so so so excited to start actually working in a classroom environment.
I also dressed up to give my lesson and I don't have the best confidence in the world, but I looked pretty darn good today.
At this point I'm just really really tired. I didn't sleep well last night and I had a long day. It wasn't by any means a bad day, just long, so I'll probably go ahead and sign off. Goodnight everyone!
Sign-Off.
I realized I had eaten a whole pizza in a day and started freaking out about that fact. But then I remembered something. Mom made pie. Delicious, warm, sweet apple pie. I couldn't help myself and despite my anxiety, I got a piece anyway. I went upstairs to my desk where my phone was plugged in, as well as my headphones, and set down the pie on my desk. I realized that I'd need to get something to drink so I went downstairs for some Lemonade and as I got up, I managed to flip the plate of pie completely over, off of the desk onto the floor and it landed exactly as badly is it could have onto my phone (which fell at the same time) and onto my computer power cables. After a good long string of expletives, I went to go clean it up and guess what. No paper towels. I eventually found paper towels downstairs, got another piece of the now almost-gone pie, and cleaned up the mess, letting the dog get the smaller crumbs. She was happy about that.
I finished BSMoR last night and it was perfect. The ending was absolutely incredible and I wish I knew Roger in real life. I think we'd be bros. Through and through it is now in my top 5 favorites and I would recommend it to anyone at all who is not a child. (The book deals with some adult themes and uses a lot of profanity.) Easily 5 out of 5 stars.
I changed my mind about starting Wolf in a White Van immediately after BSMoR. I didn't want to read all of Darnielle's works back to back for fear of somehow growing tired of them. I don't think that would realistically happen, but I figured a break will just add to my excitement and anticipation, so instead I started Impulse by Ellen Hopkins. It's one of Gillian's favorites, so I figured I'd read it. The cover is pretty cool and the writing style is really unique and neat too, so I look forward to reading it.
So today was a really busy day. I woke up late so I had to rush to exercise and shower. Then I headed to my psychology appointment. We did more EMDR stuff, which is still very fascinating to me, and I explored the ending of each thought stream related or linked to my original first experience with needles, so that was neat too. We also talked more about music and religion.
After therapy, I had to get my lesson plan ready so that I could give my lesson today for class. I taught the Cartesian Coordinate System and read them a book on its invention. The lecture went really well and I enjoyed teaching and they seemed to enjoy the lesson too. A few of the women got my number afterwards so that I could tutor their children in math so I'm very much looking forward to that, and the teacher who is a principal at a school down the road told me after class that she'd stay in touch with me because she "want[s] to make sure [I] get a good job in education." I was very very flattered and am so so so excited to start actually working in a classroom environment.
I also dressed up to give my lesson and I don't have the best confidence in the world, but I looked pretty darn good today.
At this point I'm just really really tired. I didn't sleep well last night and I had a long day. It wasn't by any means a bad day, just long, so I'll probably go ahead and sign off. Goodnight everyone!
Sign-Off.
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
October 14, 2014 - Dancing in the Rain
12 minutes! GAH. I CAN DO THIS.
Today was my first day working out since the wreck. It felt GREAT to be back on a weight machine and eating high protein breakfasts! I can't do many of my lower body workouts still though because my back is still really painful, but I'll get there eventually!
Last night I ALMOST finished BSMoR so I'll likely finish it tonight and then I'll start Wolf in a White Van so YEAH!!!!
I watched The Seed of Chucky last night and was very disappointed. It was pretty boring and the jokes weren't really even funny. So far unfortunately the worst of the series. There's only one more before I have caught up with them, so I'm hoping it'll be good. The sixth is a straight-up horror instead of horror comedy, so I have high hopes.
I got to hang out with Gillian for a while today, which was a lot of fun. We mostly worked on her college application stuff, but any time with her is a good time! At one point it started raining really hard so we went outside and danced in the rain. That's something I think everyone should do at some point in their lives. Dancing in the rain is an amazing feeling and is even better when doing it with someone you love. I ate half of a pizza for lunch and she had some noodles. That's the ONE flaw that this young woman has. She doesn't like pizza. Who on Earth doesn't like pizza?????
While we were working, mom made her famous apple pie so she sent a slice home with Gillian when I had to take her home. When I got back home I had a few more slices of pizza and then realized I had eaten almost a whole pizza.
CRAP. TIME'S OUT
Today was my first day working out since the wreck. It felt GREAT to be back on a weight machine and eating high protein breakfasts! I can't do many of my lower body workouts still though because my back is still really painful, but I'll get there eventually!
Last night I ALMOST finished BSMoR so I'll likely finish it tonight and then I'll start Wolf in a White Van so YEAH!!!!
I watched The Seed of Chucky last night and was very disappointed. It was pretty boring and the jokes weren't really even funny. So far unfortunately the worst of the series. There's only one more before I have caught up with them, so I'm hoping it'll be good. The sixth is a straight-up horror instead of horror comedy, so I have high hopes.
I got to hang out with Gillian for a while today, which was a lot of fun. We mostly worked on her college application stuff, but any time with her is a good time! At one point it started raining really hard so we went outside and danced in the rain. That's something I think everyone should do at some point in their lives. Dancing in the rain is an amazing feeling and is even better when doing it with someone you love. I ate half of a pizza for lunch and she had some noodles. That's the ONE flaw that this young woman has. She doesn't like pizza. Who on Earth doesn't like pizza?????
While we were working, mom made her famous apple pie so she sent a slice home with Gillian when I had to take her home. When I got back home I had a few more slices of pizza and then realized I had eaten almost a whole pizza.
CRAP. TIME'S OUT
Monday, October 13, 2014
October 13, 2014 - Moving a Mattress
Okay, so my title is a bit misleading. It wasn't a mattress we were moving. It was a box spring.
There's this group I belong to on Facebook called "Free and for Sale" that is a subgroup from NC State. In it someone mentioned that they needed help moving some stuff with a truck and so I posted that I could be hired to do so. Since then I've been contacted by a few people about moving things and today I was hired to move a box spring. It went pretty well. The girl who hired me seemed to be really nice and even offered to help, despite paying me to do it.
After that my father and I went to the Reader's Corner in Raleigh and I bought a bunch of Mozart and Bach vinyl records for two bucks, so that was really cool. I REALLY love that bookstore. They are very well-priced and have an amazing selection. I highly recommend stopping by if you're in the NCSU/Raleigh area.
After I bought the records we went to Snoopy's and I got an amazing chicken salad sandwich. Their food is excellent. I don't usually like chicken salad, but theirs is so amazing that I forget that I don't! The fries are perfect too. Really crispy on the outside, but fluffy and full on the inside. I love that place.
On the way home we stopped by the Harley place and drooled over the beautiful bikes, and then looked at a few car lots for El Caminos. We didn't find any that were reasonably priced unfortunately, but we're still looking. Never give up!
Which reminds me of this video that you should watch if you ever get discouraged: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE
Jessie, my sister from another mister showed me that a while back and I thought it was very helpful when I felt discouraged.
We finally got home and I almost immediately had to leave for class. Before leaving for class I made some new tea that is supposed to be good for the stomach and Skyped Gillian while it was steeping. In class the "substitute teacher" today taught us art! It was actually really fun, even though I am AWFUL at art. We drew abstract pictures, so it was okay that I was bad. In fact, the class seemed to like mine the best, which I found really funny given that I'm so bad at art.
The second "teacher" today forgot that she was signed up for today for her lesson so we ended up ending class early since she wasn't ready. I honestly thought she'd signed up for Wednesday too, but I guess not. Oh well. Early dismissal is always fun!
I got home and mom is making fajitas. This makes me very very happy. Fajitas are amazing. So far I don't have much else to say, but if something particularly great happens before the day is over I'll update.
OH! I almost forgot to mention that Child's Play 4: The Bride of Chucky was HILARIOUS. Like, really really stupidly funny. I am excited to watch CP5: The Seed of Chucky later on, maybe tonight!
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There's this group I belong to on Facebook called "Free and for Sale" that is a subgroup from NC State. In it someone mentioned that they needed help moving some stuff with a truck and so I posted that I could be hired to do so. Since then I've been contacted by a few people about moving things and today I was hired to move a box spring. It went pretty well. The girl who hired me seemed to be really nice and even offered to help, despite paying me to do it.
After that my father and I went to the Reader's Corner in Raleigh and I bought a bunch of Mozart and Bach vinyl records for two bucks, so that was really cool. I REALLY love that bookstore. They are very well-priced and have an amazing selection. I highly recommend stopping by if you're in the NCSU/Raleigh area.
After I bought the records we went to Snoopy's and I got an amazing chicken salad sandwich. Their food is excellent. I don't usually like chicken salad, but theirs is so amazing that I forget that I don't! The fries are perfect too. Really crispy on the outside, but fluffy and full on the inside. I love that place.
On the way home we stopped by the Harley place and drooled over the beautiful bikes, and then looked at a few car lots for El Caminos. We didn't find any that were reasonably priced unfortunately, but we're still looking. Never give up!
Which reminds me of this video that you should watch if you ever get discouraged: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE
Jessie, my sister from another mister showed me that a while back and I thought it was very helpful when I felt discouraged.
We finally got home and I almost immediately had to leave for class. Before leaving for class I made some new tea that is supposed to be good for the stomach and Skyped Gillian while it was steeping. In class the "substitute teacher" today taught us art! It was actually really fun, even though I am AWFUL at art. We drew abstract pictures, so it was okay that I was bad. In fact, the class seemed to like mine the best, which I found really funny given that I'm so bad at art.
The second "teacher" today forgot that she was signed up for today for her lesson so we ended up ending class early since she wasn't ready. I honestly thought she'd signed up for Wednesday too, but I guess not. Oh well. Early dismissal is always fun!
I got home and mom is making fajitas. This makes me very very happy. Fajitas are amazing. So far I don't have much else to say, but if something particularly great happens before the day is over I'll update.
OH! I almost forgot to mention that Child's Play 4: The Bride of Chucky was HILARIOUS. Like, really really stupidly funny. I am excited to watch CP5: The Seed of Chucky later on, maybe tonight!
Sign-Off.
Sunday, October 12, 2014
October 12, 2014 - Campbell Trip
Today was a really really good day. This morning I woke up (then I went downtown. To look for a job...Please tell me you caught that reference.) and picked up Gillian. We went to Campbell University from her house to tutor her close friend and my good friend's sister, Courtney in Statistics!
Today was the first day since 2010 that I have even looked at any computational statistics, and lemme tell you, it felt great. I used to LOVE stats due to having the world's greatest teacher, Mr. McNulty. Every class I had with him was engaging, relevant, and made me leave the class wishing it was longer. Mr. McNulty was actually my physics teacher and was the one to inspire me to learn more physics in college. He ended up having to quit teaching because it was financially a better idea for him to do that, but he was a legend for sure and an inspiration to everyone who took his class.
Needless to say, Mr. McNulty's lessons stuck with me still through the years and when I was helping Courtney out, I only had to review for a few minutes before teaching the lessons again. It felt great to be doing stats again and really made me miss those classes. I'm also thinking I'm going to write a program in C to solve binomial experiments just for fun!
After that we went to the Quizno's on campus and to my disappointment they removed torpedoes from the menu. Regardless, the sandwich I ended up getting was AMAZING and Gillian really liked hers too, so it worked out well. We also ran into one of Gillian's teachers there and we talked for a bit.
After that we went to my place and told each other stories of our past and stuff. It was really nice sharing everything with each other. Gillian's a really good listener and I trust her with everything. Which says a lot. I have a hard time trusting anyone. There have been several times in my past where people I trusted with my life have screwed me over and backstabbed me, but Gillian is the most trustworthy person I know and for that I am extraordinarily grateful.
After that we drove back to her place and the whole way home we belted out show tunes from Little Shop of Horrors and RENT. God, am I lucky to have her in my life. I have never had anyone, much less someone I'm in a relationship with, who loves belting show tunes as much as I do. She really should see Chicago. I think she'd enjoy it. Also Rocky Horror Picture Show. She's not seen it. Can you believe that? What thespian hasn't seen Rocky Horror Picture Show????? DAMNIT JANET!!!!!!
Came home, had some soup and now I'm about to watch Child's Play 4: The Bride of Chucky. These movies are really stupid and not even remotely scary, but they're so stupid that they're funny, and I'm already half way through the series, so why not watch the rest?
Well, I reckon I'd better get back to the movie. I hope you all had an awesome day!
Sign-Off.
Today was the first day since 2010 that I have even looked at any computational statistics, and lemme tell you, it felt great. I used to LOVE stats due to having the world's greatest teacher, Mr. McNulty. Every class I had with him was engaging, relevant, and made me leave the class wishing it was longer. Mr. McNulty was actually my physics teacher and was the one to inspire me to learn more physics in college. He ended up having to quit teaching because it was financially a better idea for him to do that, but he was a legend for sure and an inspiration to everyone who took his class.
Needless to say, Mr. McNulty's lessons stuck with me still through the years and when I was helping Courtney out, I only had to review for a few minutes before teaching the lessons again. It felt great to be doing stats again and really made me miss those classes. I'm also thinking I'm going to write a program in C to solve binomial experiments just for fun!
After that we went to the Quizno's on campus and to my disappointment they removed torpedoes from the menu. Regardless, the sandwich I ended up getting was AMAZING and Gillian really liked hers too, so it worked out well. We also ran into one of Gillian's teachers there and we talked for a bit.
After that we went to my place and told each other stories of our past and stuff. It was really nice sharing everything with each other. Gillian's a really good listener and I trust her with everything. Which says a lot. I have a hard time trusting anyone. There have been several times in my past where people I trusted with my life have screwed me over and backstabbed me, but Gillian is the most trustworthy person I know and for that I am extraordinarily grateful.
After that we drove back to her place and the whole way home we belted out show tunes from Little Shop of Horrors and RENT. God, am I lucky to have her in my life. I have never had anyone, much less someone I'm in a relationship with, who loves belting show tunes as much as I do. She really should see Chicago. I think she'd enjoy it. Also Rocky Horror Picture Show. She's not seen it. Can you believe that? What thespian hasn't seen Rocky Horror Picture Show????? DAMNIT JANET!!!!!!
Came home, had some soup and now I'm about to watch Child's Play 4: The Bride of Chucky. These movies are really stupid and not even remotely scary, but they're so stupid that they're funny, and I'm already half way through the series, so why not watch the rest?
Well, I reckon I'd better get back to the movie. I hope you all had an awesome day!
Sign-Off.
Saturday, October 11, 2014
October 11, 2014 - Recap and Today!
So yesterday I forgot about the blog until it was almost too late! Thankfully Gillian was with me so she typed it for me while I was driving! Yesterday was pretty good. We all went to Barnes & Noble (ALWAYS a lot of fun for nerdy people like us) and then we went to the mall. We didn't actually buy anything, but it was fun walking around looking at stuff aimlessly. After that we went to Red Lobster for mom's birthday dinner. I had this really good chicken stuff and some crab legs. It was amazing. Afterwards we got their cheesecake and apple pie type stuff, which was DELICIOUS.
There were a few other things I wanted to mention, but I forgot what they were, so I guess that's it for yesterday.
Last night while reading BSMoR I got a wave of really bad nausea and started freaking out about my vomiting phobia. Have I mentioned that I have a really really extreme phobia of vomiting? Well, I do. So I felt horrible, but luckily I have an amazing girlfriend who always makes me feel better. She's the best. Really.
So this morning we both woke up a good bit later than we were planning on because I was up so late feeling sick. Either way, we ended up going to the Farmer's Day festival in Coats for a bit, but it was really hot and pretty miserable so we left before the parade. They had an El Camino and a Caballero there. They were both BEAUTIFUL. That's the car I want to get next, now that I'm in the market. Have you ever heard of them? They're really neat! They are like a cross-breed between a car and a truck. I love them.
After that we went back to my place and watched a few episodes of LOST. I've seen the show before back when it came out but Gillian hasn't seen it yet. So far she's really enjoying it, as am I for my second watch through!
We were going to burn a piano today that I got a while back and was unable to sell, but it started thundering and raining on and off so that was unfortunate. Maybe next weekend I guess...
Well, I don't really have much more to say, so I guess I'll go ahead and sign off!
Sign-Off.
There were a few other things I wanted to mention, but I forgot what they were, so I guess that's it for yesterday.
Last night while reading BSMoR I got a wave of really bad nausea and started freaking out about my vomiting phobia. Have I mentioned that I have a really really extreme phobia of vomiting? Well, I do. So I felt horrible, but luckily I have an amazing girlfriend who always makes me feel better. She's the best. Really.
So this morning we both woke up a good bit later than we were planning on because I was up so late feeling sick. Either way, we ended up going to the Farmer's Day festival in Coats for a bit, but it was really hot and pretty miserable so we left before the parade. They had an El Camino and a Caballero there. They were both BEAUTIFUL. That's the car I want to get next, now that I'm in the market. Have you ever heard of them? They're really neat! They are like a cross-breed between a car and a truck. I love them.
After that we went back to my place and watched a few episodes of LOST. I've seen the show before back when it came out but Gillian hasn't seen it yet. So far she's really enjoying it, as am I for my second watch through!
We were going to burn a piano today that I got a while back and was unable to sell, but it started thundering and raining on and off so that was unfortunate. Maybe next weekend I guess...
Well, I don't really have much more to say, so I guess I'll go ahead and sign off!
Sign-Off.
Friday, October 10, 2014
October 10, 2014 - Have I Failed?
Right now Gillian is typing this for me because I am driving her home. I totally forgot to write earlier and have been out for most of the day anyway so I couldn't. I guess I'll probably talk about today in tomorrow's blog as well.
Does this mean I failed the challenge because technically I'm not typing this? I hope not.
I love youuuuuuu.
Sign-Off.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
October 9, 2014 - Mom's Birthday!!!!
Today was my mom's birthday, so that's why I haven't already posted today's blog. I picked Gillian up from school today and we made Oreo Balls. They are amazing. Basically, all you do is throw a bag of Oreos and a container of cream cheese into a blender until they are blended well, and then melt white chocolate and dip the Oreo and cheese mix (that has been cooling in the fridge btw) into the melted white chocolate, cool them and voila! You have delicious Oreo balls!
When we got to the blending step, it was my job to blend them so I used our Ninja blender thing to do it and after it's all well-blended and I was about to let my hand off of the button, the Ninja stops by itself and I start to see smoke rolling out from the top part that has the motor. Oops. After waiting for it to cool off I tried to see if it would work and NOP! The motor is completely fried. (You had ONE JOB Trey, and you screwed it up!) Either way, the balls were heavenly and were totally worth breaking our Ninja for. I should have taken pictures of them to post! Crap! Maybe I will tomorrow...
As for presents, Gillian gave my mom some really nice colored pencils (and obviously the balls), I gave her a Neil Young collector's edition of the Rolling Stone magazine as well as a Neil Young album (she LOVES Neil Young. I'm not really a fan, but I know how much he means to her, and I could never judge someone for their love of music, even if it isn't my jam.)
Speaking of music, I'm more than half way done with my book now and it is so freaking good, it's indescribable. Really, if you haven't read it, you should. Like, right now go buy it and read it. I'll even give you the link to it on amazon here:
http://www.amazon.com/Black-Sabbaths-Master-Reality-33-ebook/dp/B001NEIU7M/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1412908423&sr=8-1&keywords=black+sabbath+master+of+reality+john+darnielle
There. Now you have no excuse not to get it.
So do you remember how a few days back I mentioned my stomach issues? Well today they have been AWFUL. I have physically felt miserable all day and have barely been able to eat anything at all today. Now, I know what you're thinking. "But Trey, just a few minutes ago you were talking about how amazing Oreo balls are. Your stomach can't be THAT bad off!" Well, yeah. It IS that bad off. It felt bad before Oreo balls, and still felt bad after them. Some things are just worth feeling awful for, you know? Like eating all of that deep-fried garbage you get at fairs. You KNOW going into it that you're going to feel like shit later, but does that stop you from buying eight corndogs and two things of cotton candy? Hell no it doesn't. Or worse, those doughnut burgers. Yeah, you know exactly what I mean. Oreo balls are SO worth feeling awful for.
Anyway, I'm going to try to make some ramen or something to try to settle my stomach some, so with me luck.
OH! I almost forgot! I finalized the microphone placement and settings for the demo of my album, Falling Towers. I still haven't finished writing all of the songs, but I've decided that upon release of the album, I intend to include demo CDs with the first 118 of the final album, so that's pretty neat I think. Once the actual album goes into post production I'll probably have a thing set up somewhere to preorder it, so that'll be fun. I am very excited to put out my first album, so yeah. I should really get to working on it a bit more. As of now I only have five and a half songs for that one. I have a lot of singles that will eventually be put on albums of course too. I'm having a really hard time coming up with a name for my record label and for my band, so suggestions are always appreciated!
Today's blog post seems really really long so I guess I'll let you go here and talk to you some more tomorrow. I don't want these to get so long that you get bored reading them so yeah.
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When we got to the blending step, it was my job to blend them so I used our Ninja blender thing to do it and after it's all well-blended and I was about to let my hand off of the button, the Ninja stops by itself and I start to see smoke rolling out from the top part that has the motor. Oops. After waiting for it to cool off I tried to see if it would work and NOP! The motor is completely fried. (You had ONE JOB Trey, and you screwed it up!) Either way, the balls were heavenly and were totally worth breaking our Ninja for. I should have taken pictures of them to post! Crap! Maybe I will tomorrow...
As for presents, Gillian gave my mom some really nice colored pencils (and obviously the balls), I gave her a Neil Young collector's edition of the Rolling Stone magazine as well as a Neil Young album (she LOVES Neil Young. I'm not really a fan, but I know how much he means to her, and I could never judge someone for their love of music, even if it isn't my jam.)
Speaking of music, I'm more than half way done with my book now and it is so freaking good, it's indescribable. Really, if you haven't read it, you should. Like, right now go buy it and read it. I'll even give you the link to it on amazon here:
http://www.amazon.com/Black-Sabbaths-Master-Reality-33-ebook/dp/B001NEIU7M/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1412908423&sr=8-1&keywords=black+sabbath+master+of+reality+john+darnielle
There. Now you have no excuse not to get it.
So do you remember how a few days back I mentioned my stomach issues? Well today they have been AWFUL. I have physically felt miserable all day and have barely been able to eat anything at all today. Now, I know what you're thinking. "But Trey, just a few minutes ago you were talking about how amazing Oreo balls are. Your stomach can't be THAT bad off!" Well, yeah. It IS that bad off. It felt bad before Oreo balls, and still felt bad after them. Some things are just worth feeling awful for, you know? Like eating all of that deep-fried garbage you get at fairs. You KNOW going into it that you're going to feel like shit later, but does that stop you from buying eight corndogs and two things of cotton candy? Hell no it doesn't. Or worse, those doughnut burgers. Yeah, you know exactly what I mean. Oreo balls are SO worth feeling awful for.
Anyway, I'm going to try to make some ramen or something to try to settle my stomach some, so with me luck.
OH! I almost forgot! I finalized the microphone placement and settings for the demo of my album, Falling Towers. I still haven't finished writing all of the songs, but I've decided that upon release of the album, I intend to include demo CDs with the first 118 of the final album, so that's pretty neat I think. Once the actual album goes into post production I'll probably have a thing set up somewhere to preorder it, so that'll be fun. I am very excited to put out my first album, so yeah. I should really get to working on it a bit more. As of now I only have five and a half songs for that one. I have a lot of singles that will eventually be put on albums of course too. I'm having a really hard time coming up with a name for my record label and for my band, so suggestions are always appreciated!
Today's blog post seems really really long so I guess I'll let you go here and talk to you some more tomorrow. I don't want these to get so long that you get bored reading them so yeah.
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Wednesday, October 8, 2014
October 8, 2014 - I Went Back to Being a Kindergartener!
Well, I'm sitting in class right now (before you start thinking I'm this horrible student who blogs in class, hold your horses. Class hasn't started yet, so yeah. Chill.) and it was actually a little funny. The teacher saw me and said something along the lines of "You missed a good class last Monday!" And I was just like "Yeah, I was at the rental agency getting a car because I totaled mine this weekend" and immediately the class sort of lets out a mutual "Woah." type sound and everyone was like "I'm glad you're okay." and "you're really lucky to be all right." and stuff. It honestly felt kind of good to get the sympathy several days afterwards now that I'm feeling less guilty. The guilt is slowly but surely going away. The "guilt" thing from today was mainly from finding out the results of Gillian's follow up with the doctor. Well, she's concussed alright. The hospital we went to the night of the wreck was really wrong, yet again. They've misdiagnosed my mom in the past, as well as her grandfather on some really big, serious stuff and now they've managed to call a concussion a minor head bruise/injury. I think it was Betsy Johnson. I'll confirm that later, but yeah. Don't go there. They're awful.
One of the ladies in my class just recently had a severe reaction to the Neutrogena (possibly spelled wrong) face wash and is really swollen and had to go to the doctor, so it may be a good idea to steer clear of that. It was the orange foamy stuff. Apparently a lot of people have reacted that way.
Class is starting. Gotta go for now.
Okay, so class wasn't too bad! Two of the students gave their lesson thingy to the class and they were entertaining. The first lady taught her lesson on Internal and External traits and read us a couple of kids books and they were really good. Enemy Pie was great! The second lady taught us the life cycle of a butterfly by way of the book The Very Hungry Caterpillar. Afterwards we cut out pictures of Eggs, caterpillars, cocoons, and butterflies and colored/glued them in order.
I am beginning to think that my idea of teaching my lesson on scientific notation is probably a bad one. I think it'll be too complex comparatively.
Well, I think I'm gonna sign off here, because food should be here soon and I'm just gonna chill and Skype Gillian and play League of Legends for the first time in almost a year. I'm excited.
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One of the ladies in my class just recently had a severe reaction to the Neutrogena (possibly spelled wrong) face wash and is really swollen and had to go to the doctor, so it may be a good idea to steer clear of that. It was the orange foamy stuff. Apparently a lot of people have reacted that way.
Class is starting. Gotta go for now.
Okay, so class wasn't too bad! Two of the students gave their lesson thingy to the class and they were entertaining. The first lady taught her lesson on Internal and External traits and read us a couple of kids books and they were really good. Enemy Pie was great! The second lady taught us the life cycle of a butterfly by way of the book The Very Hungry Caterpillar. Afterwards we cut out pictures of Eggs, caterpillars, cocoons, and butterflies and colored/glued them in order.
I am beginning to think that my idea of teaching my lesson on scientific notation is probably a bad one. I think it'll be too complex comparatively.
Well, I think I'm gonna sign off here, because food should be here soon and I'm just gonna chill and Skype Gillian and play League of Legends for the first time in almost a year. I'm excited.
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Tuesday, October 7, 2014
October 7, 2014 - EMDR is Pretty Rad!
Hello! I am currently sitting at my computer about to have a Subway chocolate cookie because those are heavenly. Today was a good day. A very good day. Also busy.
First thing that happened was I woke up and started freaking out because I thought I had slept through my appointment with my psychologist (if you're reading this, hi!) but thankfully I still had a few hours before I was supposed to be there. I don't know if I've mentioned it before on here, but I have an anxiety disorder and get panic/anxiety attacks pretty frequently. Anyway, we started the first real session of a neat thing called EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing) where, if I understand correctly, by following a moving object with your eyes, your conscious brain stays in the present but it allows your subconscious to wander and sort of explore your memories and their links. (That cookie was amazing and there's another half of one in the bag...this is so tempting.) It's really neat and so far seems to have a lot of potential to be really helpful so fingers crossed!
Just before the appointment I had received the surprising news that Gillian's mom was going to let us get together today, so after my appointment I went to pick her up! This was really really exciting because it was the first time I've really got to spend with her since the wreck. It was great. I am convinced that although these cookies are amazing, it would be more accurate to say that heaven is, in reality, having her in my arms. Spending time with Gillian makes everything in the world 10 times better, so I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to see her today. (Yup, I couldn't resist. The other cookie is gone.)
Also, I don't remember if I mentioned it before, but the Chevy Malibu is pretty friggin' sweet to drive. It has a bunch of neat features and is very comfy.
After dropping Gillian back off at her house, I went to meet my family at Subway and had a pepperoni flatiza with green peppers and jalapenos. It was amazing. And now we're almost caught up with the present - I had one and a half delicious chocolate cookies and today has been a good day.
Another thing I just remembered about therapy: my psychologist mentioned that it seems to be that my brain actually stores memories in such a way that they are linked to music. That was pretty cool to hear. I mean, it makes sense, because I really love music and have been playing various instruments since I was like 6, but still it was really neat to hear that that's actually how my brain works.
Last night in Black Sabbath Master of Reality the main character was talking about the first song on the album, Sweet Leaf, and in the book he tells the reader (his therapist, Gary) to go put on the track while reading that journal entry (did I mention the whole book is a collection of journal entries?) so I went on my phone, found the song on YouTube and really got into the character of Gary while reading that section. It was an interactive book experience unlike any I've had before. Really, if you've not heard of John Darnielle or haven't read his books or heard his music, you are missing out in life. I genuinely feel sorry for you, because that man is amazing at what he does. So yeah, Sweet Leaf was great, and it made me miss my early teen years of listening to Black Sabbath all the time. I think I'll start listening to them more again. They're a great band.
DAMNIT! I just realized that my ex has my Black Sabbath shirt! Damnit!!!!! I let her have it because that's the thing people do in relationships and when we broke up I forgot all about it but damnit!!! I need another Black Sabbath shirt...
Anyway, this blog post is pretty long so I guess I'll stop here. Tomorrow's should be really exciting because I have class which is kind of the highlight of my week, so yeah. That'll be great. Well, I'm off to go waste time on social media, video games, and then not wasting time on reading more BSMoR so take care you guys.
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First thing that happened was I woke up and started freaking out because I thought I had slept through my appointment with my psychologist (if you're reading this, hi!) but thankfully I still had a few hours before I was supposed to be there. I don't know if I've mentioned it before on here, but I have an anxiety disorder and get panic/anxiety attacks pretty frequently. Anyway, we started the first real session of a neat thing called EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing) where, if I understand correctly, by following a moving object with your eyes, your conscious brain stays in the present but it allows your subconscious to wander and sort of explore your memories and their links. (That cookie was amazing and there's another half of one in the bag...this is so tempting.) It's really neat and so far seems to have a lot of potential to be really helpful so fingers crossed!
Just before the appointment I had received the surprising news that Gillian's mom was going to let us get together today, so after my appointment I went to pick her up! This was really really exciting because it was the first time I've really got to spend with her since the wreck. It was great. I am convinced that although these cookies are amazing, it would be more accurate to say that heaven is, in reality, having her in my arms. Spending time with Gillian makes everything in the world 10 times better, so I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to see her today. (Yup, I couldn't resist. The other cookie is gone.)
Also, I don't remember if I mentioned it before, but the Chevy Malibu is pretty friggin' sweet to drive. It has a bunch of neat features and is very comfy.
After dropping Gillian back off at her house, I went to meet my family at Subway and had a pepperoni flatiza with green peppers and jalapenos. It was amazing. And now we're almost caught up with the present - I had one and a half delicious chocolate cookies and today has been a good day.
Another thing I just remembered about therapy: my psychologist mentioned that it seems to be that my brain actually stores memories in such a way that they are linked to music. That was pretty cool to hear. I mean, it makes sense, because I really love music and have been playing various instruments since I was like 6, but still it was really neat to hear that that's actually how my brain works.
Last night in Black Sabbath Master of Reality the main character was talking about the first song on the album, Sweet Leaf, and in the book he tells the reader (his therapist, Gary) to go put on the track while reading that journal entry (did I mention the whole book is a collection of journal entries?) so I went on my phone, found the song on YouTube and really got into the character of Gary while reading that section. It was an interactive book experience unlike any I've had before. Really, if you've not heard of John Darnielle or haven't read his books or heard his music, you are missing out in life. I genuinely feel sorry for you, because that man is amazing at what he does. So yeah, Sweet Leaf was great, and it made me miss my early teen years of listening to Black Sabbath all the time. I think I'll start listening to them more again. They're a great band.
DAMNIT! I just realized that my ex has my Black Sabbath shirt! Damnit!!!!! I let her have it because that's the thing people do in relationships and when we broke up I forgot all about it but damnit!!! I need another Black Sabbath shirt...
Anyway, this blog post is pretty long so I guess I'll stop here. Tomorrow's should be really exciting because I have class which is kind of the highlight of my week, so yeah. That'll be great. Well, I'm off to go waste time on social media, video games, and then not wasting time on reading more BSMoR so take care you guys.
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Monday, October 6, 2014
October 6, 2014 - Rental Car
Right now I'm sitting in the rental place's office waiting for my temporary car while I wait for the insurance money to buy a new one. Also, I'm typing this on my phone so if there are typos, I apologise.
It's looking like I'm going to be put in a maroon 2015 Chevy Malibu. Pretty sweet. Right now I'm waiting on it to be dropped off so yeah. Most of the rest of the day so far I've spent just kind of resting in bed screwing around with writing C programs. I have class tonight so that'll be fun. I'll get to tell the moms that I got in a wreck. That'll be fun. Gillian's mom wouldn't let me see her today abd her head's getting worse, which is very concerning but she has a follow-up appointment for Wednesday to get it checked out, so hopefully it'll be okay. I'm pretty worried. Uhhh. So far I don't have anything else really to say. I'll probably "edit" my post tonight with more info if anything else interesting happens but so far it's just a lazy day.
It's a pretty rad car. I've only driven it home, but the engine cuts off every time you stop to conserve gas. It's neat.
I also just found out that Gillian's ex who cheated on her is trying to check up on her after the wreck. Feels bad. He probably wouldn't have gotten in a wreck...
I ended up having to miss class because I was reading all of the Terms and Agreements for the rental place, so yeah. I've just been at home Skyping Gillian and then I heard about the ex thing. Kinda not feelin' it Mr. Krabbs.
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POST SIGN-OFF UPDATE
My girlfriend is literally perfect. She's amazing and I am so so so so so lucky to have her in my life. She knows exactly what to say to make me feel better and for that I couldn't be more thankful. I love you so much sweetie.
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My girlfriend is literally perfect. She's amazing and I am so so so so so lucky to have her in my life. She knows exactly what to say to make me feel better and for that I couldn't be more thankful. I love you so much sweetie.
Sunday, October 5, 2014
October 5, 2014 - Stomach Issues, Great Books, and Wreck Pictures!
Fell asleep pretty late last night. I had a pretty bad stomach ache and wanted to read anyway, so I was up for a while. That actually brings up both of the major things I wanted to blog about.
I have a stomach disorder. I've had it badly since around 2006 and have been back and forth to hospitals since then trying to get it figured out. Nobody has any idea what it is that's wrong. At this point I've had every test the gastroenterologist can give me except for a secondary gallbladder scan and nothing. No answers. It's really really awful. It's actually a lot worse than one would imagine. When you have stomach and GI issues, it doesn't end at not being able to have certain foods, or even at getting pain and nausea every time you eat. It's so much more. Every "dinner" or food oriented event for me is really uncomfortable. I feel really self-conscious and like everyone is watching me and wondering why I'm eating so slowly. And then I have to leave and use the bathroom and sometimes I can't come back for half an hour because I'm in so much pain and everyone has one of two looks when I finally get back. They either have a look of amusement that someone could be pooping for 30 whole minutes (yes, it is very possible) or they give me a look of pity. That classic "You poor thing" look with the half-slanted mouth and the occasional tut tut. Instantly I become exactly what I don't want to be: the center of attention. It's also a matter of normality. There are few things that make you feel not-human, and this is one of them. Eating is something every living thing does in some way shape or form, but I can't do it properly. It's like my body is telling me to hurry up and die. Well guess what, body. No. I refuse.
The second thing I wanted to mention was reading. Ever since I was a child I've loved books. I started reading at a very young age and still read for pleasure just about every night. I mostly read classic literature, but I read a little of everything. I just finished Lord of the Flies and it was 'aight. Not my favorite AT ALL, but it wasn't horrible. The ending was weird. But now I'm reading something I've been excited to read for a LONG time. My favorite musician, John Darnielle (also known as The Mountain Goats) just recently released a novel called Wolf in a White Van and in preparing to read that, I decided to read his first book, Black Sabbath Master of Reality and It. Is. AMAZING. John's writing is so absolutely brilliant that I can't even begin to explain it to you. I'm already relating to the main character Roger as much, if not more, than I did with Holden Caulfield from Catcher in the Rye or Pudge (Miles) Halter from Looking for Alaska. Reading Master of Reality is making me SO FREAKING EXCITED to read Wolf in a White Van and I am just so so very happy that John Darnielle is just as good of a novelist as he is a lyricist. He is my hero, and I couldn't be more thankful for his work. It is truly something special to me and has inspired me on several occasions to keep going.
So yeah, that's mostly all I have to say. Oh yeah, the pictures. I was gonna post those. Let's see if they'll upload.
Wooo! After 2 hours they finally uploaded! Just in time for it to still be today too! Take care everyone!
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I have a stomach disorder. I've had it badly since around 2006 and have been back and forth to hospitals since then trying to get it figured out. Nobody has any idea what it is that's wrong. At this point I've had every test the gastroenterologist can give me except for a secondary gallbladder scan and nothing. No answers. It's really really awful. It's actually a lot worse than one would imagine. When you have stomach and GI issues, it doesn't end at not being able to have certain foods, or even at getting pain and nausea every time you eat. It's so much more. Every "dinner" or food oriented event for me is really uncomfortable. I feel really self-conscious and like everyone is watching me and wondering why I'm eating so slowly. And then I have to leave and use the bathroom and sometimes I can't come back for half an hour because I'm in so much pain and everyone has one of two looks when I finally get back. They either have a look of amusement that someone could be pooping for 30 whole minutes (yes, it is very possible) or they give me a look of pity. That classic "You poor thing" look with the half-slanted mouth and the occasional tut tut. Instantly I become exactly what I don't want to be: the center of attention. It's also a matter of normality. There are few things that make you feel not-human, and this is one of them. Eating is something every living thing does in some way shape or form, but I can't do it properly. It's like my body is telling me to hurry up and die. Well guess what, body. No. I refuse.
The second thing I wanted to mention was reading. Ever since I was a child I've loved books. I started reading at a very young age and still read for pleasure just about every night. I mostly read classic literature, but I read a little of everything. I just finished Lord of the Flies and it was 'aight. Not my favorite AT ALL, but it wasn't horrible. The ending was weird. But now I'm reading something I've been excited to read for a LONG time. My favorite musician, John Darnielle (also known as The Mountain Goats) just recently released a novel called Wolf in a White Van and in preparing to read that, I decided to read his first book, Black Sabbath Master of Reality and It. Is. AMAZING. John's writing is so absolutely brilliant that I can't even begin to explain it to you. I'm already relating to the main character Roger as much, if not more, than I did with Holden Caulfield from Catcher in the Rye or Pudge (Miles) Halter from Looking for Alaska. Reading Master of Reality is making me SO FREAKING EXCITED to read Wolf in a White Van and I am just so so very happy that John Darnielle is just as good of a novelist as he is a lyricist. He is my hero, and I couldn't be more thankful for his work. It is truly something special to me and has inspired me on several occasions to keep going.
So yeah, that's mostly all I have to say. Oh yeah, the pictures. I was gonna post those. Let's see if they'll upload.
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Saturday, October 4, 2014
October, 4, 2014 - Nothing Very New.
Gillian is okay! A little banged up, and badly bruised but aside from both of us being really really sore, we're okay. I got to see her today. I brought her flowers. I still feel awful about it all, but I went back to where we crashed today and I tracked where I was and I actually handled the crash really well. I rode on the shoulder of the road for a good bit before the shoulder collapsed into the ditch because there was road work being done. When it collapsed I was able to keep the wheel mostly straight, otherwise it would have flipped. Oh, and I didn't swerve by the way. A lot of people have been informing me that I shouldn't have swerved. Well, I didn't. When I hit the raccoon, the tire popped up and that's when I landed on the soft shoulder of the road. Also, I was not speeding. I was going ten under because we had just taken a U-turn because we went the wrong way. There are a thousand things I could have done that would have been better had I been prepared, but I did exactly what I was taught to do in my safe driving course and was following the road laws. It was just bad luck. Nothing that could have been done. I still can't help but blame myself, and I'm still upset that I in any way contributed to putting Gillian into a dangerous situation, but I am so so glad she's okay. So so glad. She is my life, and the woman that I would be honored to someday have the opportunity to marry.
Anyway, she and I are Skyping right now (despite my internet being GOD AWFUL) so I will likely end this here. I don't have much to say other than that according to the doctor I'm going to be REALLY sore tomorrow, so that'll be fun.
I'll be posting pictures as soon as they upload so if it's today, I'll just "edit" this post and post them here. Otherwise I'll post them tomorrow.
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Anyway, she and I are Skyping right now (despite my internet being GOD AWFUL) so I will likely end this here. I don't have much to say other than that according to the doctor I'm going to be REALLY sore tomorrow, so that'll be fun.
I'll be posting pictures as soon as they upload so if it's today, I'll just "edit" this post and post them here. Otherwise I'll post them tomorrow.
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Friday, October 3, 2014
October 3, 2014 - Totaling a Vehicle
I'm in the emergency room right now waiting to hear how Gillian is. She says she's okay other than a few bad bruises, but we went here anyway because she hit her head and was dizzy and tired. I'm okay other than being a little sore and banged up, myself. I'm mostly worried and shell shocked. I hate myself immensely for endangering her at all.
I should probably tell the story of what happened, but if someone comes out with info about her, I'm putting this down obviously. She's far more important than a challenge.
So we were driving home from having dinner at the Cornerstone Cafe in Coats, NC (highly recommended btw) and a raccoon ran out in front of me. I slammed on the breaks and when I hit it (after all that, I still hit the bastard) I fell onto a soft shoulder of the road, hit an abrupt ditch end, jumped over a driveway, and landed in another ditch. The car was very much totaled.I'll post pictures in tomorrow's blog post probably.
I just can't stop thinking of the fact that she could have died. My love. Everything I'd always dreamed of and all of my life plans almost gone. Because of me. I hate myself so much right now. I hate myself so much right now. I hate myself so much right now.
I'm just so so thankful that she's okay for the most part. I couldn't live if I had done anything to hurt her. I really should get checked out too because my neck hurts and my arm is throbbing, but I'd rather sit in the waiting room and make sure she's okay before seeing a doctor of my own. I love her with all of my heart and it sickens me to think that my screw up caused her to be in the ER. I hate myself.
The first thing I did when the car stopped was get out and check on her. I could barely walk, but she's all I was thinking about. I called 911 and she called my dad since they were closer by. I'm just glad she's okay. At least from anything major. I hate myself.
I think I've found a sign off: I. Hate. Myself.
I should probably tell the story of what happened, but if someone comes out with info about her, I'm putting this down obviously. She's far more important than a challenge.
So we were driving home from having dinner at the Cornerstone Cafe in Coats, NC (highly recommended btw) and a raccoon ran out in front of me. I slammed on the breaks and when I hit it (after all that, I still hit the bastard) I fell onto a soft shoulder of the road, hit an abrupt ditch end, jumped over a driveway, and landed in another ditch. The car was very much totaled.I'll post pictures in tomorrow's blog post probably.
I just can't stop thinking of the fact that she could have died. My love. Everything I'd always dreamed of and all of my life plans almost gone. Because of me. I hate myself so much right now. I hate myself so much right now. I hate myself so much right now.
I'm just so so thankful that she's okay for the most part. I couldn't live if I had done anything to hurt her. I really should get checked out too because my neck hurts and my arm is throbbing, but I'd rather sit in the waiting room and make sure she's okay before seeing a doctor of my own. I love her with all of my heart and it sickens me to think that my screw up caused her to be in the ER. I hate myself.
The first thing I did when the car stopped was get out and check on her. I could barely walk, but she's all I was thinking about. I called 911 and she called my dad since they were closer by. I'm just glad she's okay. At least from anything major. I hate myself.
I think I've found a sign off: I. Hate. Myself.
Thursday, October 2, 2014
October 2, 2014 - Poll Worker Probs and Giving Up Rights
Hello again! I'm currently sitting here in the Lillington-Something-Center because I was planning on working as a poll worker for this election. Gillian did it last year and I thought it would be pretty fun (not to mention you get paid!) so here I am. Well, the meeting thing lasts three hours and after the first hour, they gave us handouts to sign an oath. I have a philosophy that I plan to read everything I sign my name to. I honestly don't know why more people don't share this with me. It seems like a really great idea to actually READ what you're legally signing your name to. Common sense. So anyway, I read this oath and by signing and agreeing to it I would have to revoke all rights of free speech with regards of my support of a candidate. This extends beyond the polling place and work site (something that they did not care to mention until I specifically asked) meaning that I would be unallowed to say ANYTHING about a candidate until after the election. Now, anyone who knows me knows that I am very politically active, and I am 100% cool with not pressuring anyone to vote for a candidate at the polling place, but it is REALLY messed up to try to persuade me not to say anything to anyone ever about it.
The sad thing is that I can guarantee that half, if not more, of the people who signed it have no idea what they actually just agreed to. And for those who DO understand, it makes me sad that people can be persuaded to give up their freedom of speech for $165. The fact that the government would even ask that of citizens should be alarming and I will absolutely be bringing this up to my representatives. This is shameful.
Needless to say, I did NOT sign and am now sitting here for another two hours while I wait for Gillian to finish. She said I could leave if I wanted, but I'm going to stay because I don't feel like driving back and forth, and also because I'm curious as to what other crazy demands they may have for workers.
Anyway, my message to you, reader-of-my-blog, is to READ things before you SIGN them. Also, I encourage you to NOT give up your Constitutional rights. EVER. These rights were defined by our founding fathers for our protection and for the protection of liberty.
I'm not pissed about staying here as well because I have C to work on, as well as this blog post to write.
I've never posted a picture on a blog before so let me know if this is not readable, but here's the oath. There are a few other sketchy things on it, but the underlined part is the part I was referencing.
Enough politics. Uhhh. I increased my workout weight to curling 100lbs, which I am super excited and proud about! Well, today I did 2 sets with 90 lbs and 1 with 100lbs. Tomorrow is the opposite and then from then out it'll be 100lbs. I've found that the gradual increase like that over a few days is really helpful to not over-stress muscles and to help accustom yourself to it.
Oh, and since I'm working out, I've been eating more protein and this morning the eggs I made were cooked TO PERFECTION!!! They were delicious and I had peanut butter toast with REAL peanut butter, not crappy Jiff with additives and gross stuff. My peanut butter only has ONE ingredient. PEANUTS.
I'm pretty much out of things to say for right now so I guess that's it.
Damn. I was supposed to think of a sign-off. Oh well, I guess I'll do it tomorrow.
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
October 1, 2014 - Preservation of Originality (just that)
Okay, so I've never blogged before. Well, I've vlogged. Does that count? Anyway, apparently there's some sort of October challenge thing to blog every day so I think I'll give it a shot. Background info:
Okay so after typing "Background info:" I just kinda stared off into the distance for a few minutes having no idea what to say (kinda like how I do when in a role playing game I get to "Character Name" so I guess I'll just tell you stuff as it becomes relevant.
I think I should probably not go back and edit anything or delete stuff at all because those were my thoughts despite all of this probably turning out to be really awful writing (I swear I'm much better when I go back and self edit!) so I just noticed both of those paragraphs start with "Okay, so" and although this is upsetting, I will keep it as such to preserve my actual thoughts right now.
I just noticed while quoting myself that the first "Okay, so" has a comma and the other does not so HA! They ARE different! I was going to change it so that they matched but nop. Preservation of Originality. Oooo. That'd make a good chapter title. Or maybe a song title? I think I'm gonna title this post just that.
Heh, the smartass in me wants to now name it "just that" but I shall refrain.
Okay, I can't refrain. In parenthesis you shall go! (Holy balls I spelled "parenthesis" correctly the first time!!!)
Well, I'M LATE FOR CLASS SHIT!!!!! GOTTA GO NOW!!!! WILL CONTINUE AFTER I GET BACK FUUUUUUCKKKKKKKK!
Okay so I'm back from class. Shit. I said "Okay so" again. Oh well. DEAL WITH MY QUESO BITCHES!!!
After I got back, my mom and girlfriend got back from their pedicure and we all went to Taco Bell. Taco Bell is amazing. When we drove home, Gillian (my girlfriend) and I decided to Tango in my driveway to "Tango Maureen" from RENT. We're musical theatre dorks and proud.
Oh! Almost forgot to mention that my class is for substitute teaching and all of my classmates are middle-aged women. Anyway, they were all talking about their children for the whole three hours and I decided to just work on my latest educational hobby: learning C! I'm learning from the only book anyone should learn it from, "The C Programming Language" written by Dennis Ritchie, the man who created C and UNIX. (if you don't know him but you know who Steve Jobs is, you should be ashamed of yourself.)
Anyway, it's almost midnight so I should post this now before I'm too late.
Uh...Sign-off? Do blogs have a sign-off? Hm. Oh well, I'll figure it out tomorrow.
Okay so after typing "Background info:" I just kinda stared off into the distance for a few minutes having no idea what to say (kinda like how I do when in a role playing game I get to "Character Name" so I guess I'll just tell you stuff as it becomes relevant.
I think I should probably not go back and edit anything or delete stuff at all because those were my thoughts despite all of this probably turning out to be really awful writing (I swear I'm much better when I go back and self edit!) so I just noticed both of those paragraphs start with "Okay, so" and although this is upsetting, I will keep it as such to preserve my actual thoughts right now.
I just noticed while quoting myself that the first "Okay, so" has a comma and the other does not so HA! They ARE different! I was going to change it so that they matched but nop. Preservation of Originality. Oooo. That'd make a good chapter title. Or maybe a song title? I think I'm gonna title this post just that.
Heh, the smartass in me wants to now name it "just that" but I shall refrain.
Okay, I can't refrain. In parenthesis you shall go! (Holy balls I spelled "parenthesis" correctly the first time!!!)
Well, I'M LATE FOR CLASS SHIT!!!!! GOTTA GO NOW!!!! WILL CONTINUE AFTER I GET BACK FUUUUUUCKKKKKKKK!
Okay so I'm back from class. Shit. I said "Okay so" again. Oh well. DEAL WITH MY QUESO BITCHES!!!
After I got back, my mom and girlfriend got back from their pedicure and we all went to Taco Bell. Taco Bell is amazing. When we drove home, Gillian (my girlfriend) and I decided to Tango in my driveway to "Tango Maureen" from RENT. We're musical theatre dorks and proud.
Oh! Almost forgot to mention that my class is for substitute teaching and all of my classmates are middle-aged women. Anyway, they were all talking about their children for the whole three hours and I decided to just work on my latest educational hobby: learning C! I'm learning from the only book anyone should learn it from, "The C Programming Language" written by Dennis Ritchie, the man who created C and UNIX. (if you don't know him but you know who Steve Jobs is, you should be ashamed of yourself.)
Anyway, it's almost midnight so I should post this now before I'm too late.
Uh...Sign-off? Do blogs have a sign-off? Hm. Oh well, I'll figure it out tomorrow.
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